Yes, I know. I post under the guise of ‘creative writing’, ‘literature’ and ‘poetry’.
But the truth is that I’m not creative. At all, to be quite frank.
Now, I’m aware that envy is one of the seven deadly sins. But let me elaborate.
I’m envious of creatives. There’s no jealousy within me, which would be more problematic in my view, but there is envy.
Let’s begin with artists. I wish I was artistic, possessing the ability to create incredible visual artistry, a lot of which I see here on WordPress and other platforms. The sheer thought, flair, individuality and imagination I see expressed through these visual works of mastery do bring a smile to my face, I will admit that. I appreciate the time, skill and effort it takes to produce such works, resulting in both aesthetically and mentally pleasing pieces. I just wish I had those skills.
I’m envious of writers. Those who can string together words with literary artistry, individuals who can express themselves through sentences, paragraphs and pages, forming compositions of text that speak to me on a deeper level than I could ever convey through my own writing. But again, reading pieces from these talented individuals brings a smile to my face.
Photographers and videographers. Digital artists, I call them. Those with a keen eye for visuals through a lens, capturing images that will remain timeless, capturing moments that are now documented for eternity. I don’t have those eyes, or those skills. Though, once again, seeing these epic and breathtaking snapshots of the natural world, of society, of objects; it brings a smile to my face.
Finally, musicians. Those with a keen mind for melodies and patterns expressed through sound. Whether electronic or created with real instruments, the ability to compose and play is one that I wish I had. Music is probably the most powerful art form for me, a universal language through audio that I couldn’t live, or function, without. Again, it brings a smile to my face but also a greater understanding and appreciation of the wider world through different interpretations and expressions of sound. I can lose myself for hours in sound.
Now, the first group I cited I referred to as artists. The general term we know for individuals great at drawing, sketching, painting etc. But all of the above groups are artists. The only thing that differs between them are their art forms. But they are all artists.
So, what do I have? I don’t know. But I keep writing. For no reason other than to fulfil my own desires, perhaps. I lack creativity. Maybe it’s because I’m a science-minded individual, although that’s no excuse as I know plenty of individuals who are trained in science that have creative minds, creative skills and creative flair.
I think creativity is something you either have, or you don’t. A creative mind is one to be treasured, I feel. Creatives think differently, their perception of everyday things is different, their interpretational capabilities are different; in a good way. There’s something about seeing things in a more encompassing light that I greatly respect and admire.
I also think that the educational system neglects creativity somewhat, in particular the Arts. Now, I never had creativity to begin with so the neglect is not something I personally felt, but I do feel as though there should be more of an emphasis on the Arts throughout the learning process for young people. There is a huge push for the science, maths and engineering paths in education, less so for the Arts. I mean, that is an opinion I have formed through my own experiences and perhaps it isn’t the reality we face today. It is simply my perception of things.
What was impetus to this post? I have to rehash a phrase written previously: I don’t know. Maybe it was a rant about my own shortcomings, my own lack of ability or skill. That might not show me in a particularly favourable light, I concede. Maybe I wrote this as something of a boost for creatives, to carry on with their creativity, perhaps in a selfish way as I can continue to enjoy their work whilst watching them grow and progress. The Arts are needed in today’s society. Either way, if there are any creatives out there reading this, just know one thing: I have great admiration for you.
Featured image: My OG of a sister